Lüdenscheid, Bielefeld, studying…
Hi there! I hope you are well. This week I started off being in Luedenscheid after the concert of last Sunday, went for a small walk around to see the city center, not much to say though. Later we took a train Bielefeld and met some friends who work at the theatre. We found a very good Japanese place with excellent Ramen and some nice coffee places, I was surprise positively about Bielefeld. This city was really unknown to me and I am glad I was there to see a bit and it has some charm, at least to me. It seems like a nice calm city, with nice city center and a very relax vibe, also a very clean city from what I saw. To meet colleagues and friends that work in other theaters is really interesting. To discover how much differences are between the theatre and how they are managed by the people in charge. It seems they have bosses good enough to let them as much as possible to guest in other theaters and they are not overloaded with too many roles or performances, I was glad to hear my friends were happy in their theatre. A bit different of how Wuerzburg was managed, it seems.
After singing the concert last week, I have been solely focusing on doing some writing and reading I have been wanting to do. Focusing also in the new arias I am working for the upcoming opportunities. On the path discovering the life of freelancing and knowing how hard it is. I cannot tell how many times colleagues that were freelancing mentioned it, even the ones that are doing pretty well. So, I of course took that into account before quitting Wuerzburg last season. After 8 seasons it is not easy to re adapt and re organize the way I basically live. I knew I would be out of my comfort zone and that is partly exactly why I decided to quit. I can go into great detail of the many reasons why I left or why I should have stayed, both size of the coins where possible, I could have stayed but I decided to leave. In few words, I realized I did not want that way of life anymore. I enjoyed, learnt a lot, sang a lot and made some friends along the way, but I what I needed and wanted were not anymore there, some priorities changed in my life, so time to move on as hard as it was, or get too comfortable. Now, I am living the consequences of my decision and I know is challenging at times but I have done much more in this season that I could have done working in Wuerzburg and discovering more about myself has been really eye opening, because I am facing new challenges, so I will keep moving forward. Doing all that is in my hands, to keep working on my voice, roles, and becoming the best version of myself as a musician and as a person, the rest, to all that lies beyond my control, well, that is not up to me anymore. I trust on the path that lies ahead and even though is unknown I will try to continue believing that everything will be fine. I am glad I have friends that are going through the same challenging times and it helps so much to exchange ideas, views and together support each other to continue with the beautiful profession and way of living.
I continue readin Holiday and Tolstoi, also reading my notes of “The inner game of tennis” that I read a couple of weeks ago. I continue as well with my “morning pages”. This “morning pages” which I started in the summer, have given me a lot of clarity to thoughts and feelings that, when put unto paper become so clear and easier to understand. I also continue with my 4 times a week exercise routine.
Take care and see you next week.
